When I decided that I was going to create this blog it took me awhile to figure out exactly what I wanted it to be. I knew I wanted it to be a place where I could reflect on things and express myself, but I also knew that I wanted to help others. I wanted to give people a place where they could go to read about other people’s struggles and they could see how they get through every day.
I also wanted to give people a place to express their thoughts, visions, and share stories with others.
So as you can see, I need writers. I need people who are willing to open up to the world and share their stories! Share their visions! And share their thoughts! I hope I can find the right people, they need to have the need of wanting to open up and share their stories to help others. That’s what this comes down to really, giving people the chance to write to help themselves but also to help others.
So… let the journey begin.
“Depression. Something that is very real. Something that is very serious. Something that I have had to overcome and deal with since I was little however specifically since the spring of 2011. I have had to fight every day... some days have been better than others. Yet some people believe it isn't real and it is something people do just for attention. Boy I wish that was the case because I would gladly give this battle up any day.
I've returned to my past and begun to talk with someone weekly to try and help me battle my inner demons. To help me fight this disease. It's something I'd like to overcome with the help of Jeff. Can I pinpoint one thing that made me the way I am... no. You're probably wondering why I'm sharing this all with you, many of you won't care and with think it's absolutely ridiculous that I'm doing this. However I'm not doing it for attention I'm doing to help others who battle this same disease. So feel free to judge me all you want. I’m reaching out to others to let them know they are not alone. You don’t need to hide your depression and anxiety anymore.
Jeff told me the other day, "It can always get better, unless you are dead," and it hit me hard. Do I struggle to understand when others take their own lives? No I don’t. That might be extremely hard for others to accept however after Jeff said what he said to me it changed my view. I want things to get better. I want each day to get easier. And if I'm dead it won't, it'll just be over.
Support is what is needed not bashing and shaming for battling depression. It's not like all of us who battle depression chose to be this. We just are... and we just need you.
With that I will be taking a break from all social media, my battle with depression and anxiety has begun to get the best of me. Social media is only making things worse during this difficult time in my life. I have battled this far too long and recently it has become much worse for me.
I will be back, hopefully sooner rather than later. But I need to find myself and become healthier - both mentally and physically. I promise you I will be okay and I will see you all soon enough.
If you need me, please feel free to text or call me. My cell phone number is 612-219-3056. Please let me know who you are if I don’t already have you’re number.
I appreciate all the thoughts and prayers.”
The above message was posted on my Facebook page on January 4th of this year. I am hopeful that people gained insight about who I am from that post. I have always tried to put on a happy face in the eye of the public. I have always tried to make it seem like everything is great in the eye of the public. I realize that no one is perfect and everyone has demons. Some people can cope with them better than others but… some people’s demons are much worse than others. The effort some people must put forth every day to fight them can be mentally and physically exhausting. But we can do it, you can do it. Have faith and remember we are here for each other.
I know you are probably thinking that I didn’t really say anything in this blog post, but I wasn’t planning on it. I just wanted to share a little glimpse of who I was. I just wanted to share a little glimpse of my vision for “Speaking our Mind” and hopefully you will return for my next blog post.
“Be here tomorrow.”
I’ll see you soon,