This last week has been challenging & I have to remind myself that it won’t always be. One day my babies won’t be so dependent on me and my house will be clean & quiet. I’ll be able to sleep through the night and actually have a conversation with my husband without the little ones needing my attention too.
Right now I am embracing the chaos & giving myself a little grace. Being a working mom is hard. Being a mom is hard. Life is hard. But this life of mine is great. Oh so great!
Having kids close in age is amazing but at the same time it is a roller coaster that never seems to end. The thrill of it, watching them play & bond has you going up that track on the coaster. When all hell breaks loose and they both need something at the exact same time is when you’re going down the biggest hill on that ride. It’s enjoyable but frightening all at the same time. You want to laugh and scream and throw your hands up simultaneously. Which I have done, many times. I’ve even broken down crying with them when the day has gone incredibly wrong. Think about when you’re going in a tunnel on a coaster and you’re so scared that you cry...
I countdown the hours until bedtime sometimes when I can have just five solid minutes to myself, with no one touching me or needing me. The funny thing is that when they’re sleeping, I miss them. Like a lot.
When I tuck them into bed that roller coaster has stopped. Just for a little while, until one wakes up. Then it starts all over again.
I love roller coasters. They are thrilling, bumpy and exciting. Just like life. It’s never dull, never boring and will always give you that sense of exhilaration we all crave at times.